be loved

Yeah, I give up, no ones ever going to love me. I realize this now, and I have to deal with it, it’s all I wanted but honestly, I know in my heart it’s just not going to happen.
So I suppose I need to concede, and decide how to live a long and single life, or whether living alone is even worth living.
And cesides, this wasn’t a goal anyways, more of a hope/dream; You can’t make someone else love you.

But yeah, it’s not going to happen, and I need to be adult, and deal with this. It’s just so unfair to see all the people get love who don’t appreciate it. But I’m over it, or at least i will be someday. Me and my 52 cats…

I typed a really good entry about this. Twice, but my computer, as always, eats my essays. so to summarize:

New selection, yet still never been even asked.
What’s wrong with me.
I want to meet the one.
I’m impatient.
The fat/ugly chicks never win.

maybe i just need to be more lovable??

what is lovable anyway?

but then I wouldnt really be loved..

maybe all the 43 thingers on here should just love each other?
then we could get with all of the people who want to “make love” and have an orgy?

why does no one love me?

even my own mommy hates me.

As corny as it sounds, this is really.. what i want..
just to be loved, truly loved.
all the romantic notions of love..
someone to care if i died..
someone to understand me, and know me, and accept me with all
my pain and faults and brokeness..