put the effort into changing myself. i would wake up early and fill my day with lots of actions that would get me closer to my goals. i would turn off my tv. i would stop spending money. i would probably be exhausted, but happy to see my progress.
i don’t know where to begin. shit. is it because i’m afraid of changing? what am i getting from my current lifestyle? i’m not moving forward. i feel like i haven’t grown in the past 5 years. what have i done? where are the improvements?
i love when you get so pumped up for something. you have all the energy and optimism to do it and can’t imagine that feeling slip away…then, it does. it’s so hard! but very worth it too. i’m trying to remember that the journey toward a goal is a rush and i should really savor it. i’m definitely looking at myself and my life a lot more this past week. i guess in a different way. i think i usually look at it like it’s something out of my hands? i dunno. but now i’m looking at it and disecting it. what do i want? what is it going to take for me to get there? and not in unrealistic ways either. i’m giving myself a year to really change a lot of myself and that feels doable – which is great.
i am starting (TODAY!) to adopt the ‘fake it till you make it’ attitude. i’m just going to start behaving in the way i would if i were the person i want to be.
i’m so tired of waiting for that magical day where i get up and change my life…i am starting now.
i am going to thoroughly overhaul my life – really examine who i am and who i want to be. what behaviors make me who i am & what behaviors will make me who i want to be.
life is so short and i feel like the last 5 years have been one big blur. that’s so sad. what the hell am i waiting for?!