I have begun sorting through all the “stuff” I put off when I was younger. Now that I am mature enough to handle the intensity of the experiences without slipping into denial, I have made it my full time job. I just want to be able to be honest with myself and finally know what is actually ME and what are patterns passed down from my parents.
I am learning that all my life I have been basing my decisions and actions on a belief system which was completely wrong for me. Now I am deconstructing my faulty foundation and rebuilding my Self to be consistent with who I really am. It’s a long and painful process but now that I have admitted this, it is impossible to turn back.
I am just starting but have a good grasp on where I am going and what I need to do. No doubt about it though, its going to be hard, no matter how I slice it.
