cry all the tears i have saved up

Upon realization of the truths of my past, I am releasing them. There are usually quiet tears involved in this process. Each one that comes out, is strangely familiar. It’s like saying goodbye to an old friend that you know you will never see again but they are off to a better place.

I listened to a sad story and wept silently the other day. No one could hear me but there were more than 20 tears.

Because for some reason I am deathly afraid to cry in front of people (even myself sometimes). I have alot of tears trying to get out now that they see I am becoming more open. I have about twenty years worth so I know it won’t happen overnight but I would like to be able to cry freely when I feel it.