find a mate

One gave up on me…said we were through over six months ago then called me up last night for a rendezvous. Another started calling me up on the phone for long chats and then out of the blue a man I hadn’t heard from in 15 years calls me up on the phone cause he wants to hook up with old friends…

Three on the prowl and not a one in sight. Hmmm——guess I’ll just go with the flow and see where the current takes me on this endeavor.

I went out with my friend last week. Three days of last week, never left his side! He has been my friend for the last ten years. Calling him my friend is kinda like calling cheese, cheese. He is my friend but he’s more than that as well. To most everyone we know, we are simply friends. Then we run away from home and become the so much more. I drove 120 miles to paradise it seemed. Living in fantasy. Loving with no holds barred…. He’s the ideal man, but not at all husband material. Gawd! How well I know that!
Still working on this goal…

It has been five months since I wrote anything about finding a husband. I haven’t a clue how the heck I snagged the first husband over 25 years ago! He’s been dead for ten and a half years. Shouldn’t there have been more than two who took a second look my way??
Perhaps I am meant to be alone for the rest of my life! God knows the one that holds my attention right now is NOT husband material!
I’ll keep plugging along and maybe someday a potential husband will come into view! Tell me where you all find these droves of men you talk about…
there are no men in my neck of the woods and the ones that are here and unattached don’t even seem to notice I am a living breathing woman! I’m doing something wrong…just haven’t a clue what the heck it is I am doing wrong!
This goal frustrates me!

`That’s the prerequisite for marriage… to be needed, wanted and loved. I have so much love to give away and there’s not a soul in sight that will take that love and nurture it to become something so strong nothing can tear it apart.
The men I know look only on the surface and either refuse or don’t even bother to look beyond. I don’t want a one stand for the rest of my life! I want someone who needs, wants and loves me as much as need, want and love him! Nothing less will suffice~!
Perhaps that makes me too picky? Or perhaps that makes me a woman who knows what she wants, but doesn’t know where that man is keeping himself!
I haven’t given up on this goal and I won’t give up on this goal till it is met. I refuse to spend the rest of my life alone!

Yep. Looking. That’s all I can accomplish these days. Either I’m not as attractive as I think I am or the men around here are all blind or already taken.
I just don’t know! Today I am not even going to think about the fact I’ve been single for 13 years! I ain’t that hard to get along with! I don’t know why I can’t find a man friend to get this goal started with. Hell, just a man friend would be nice, and I’ll think about a husband down the line!
I’m frustrated with goal right now.

if I’m looking at this goal all wrong or if I simply am meant not to be allotted more than one husband in my lifetime. I didn’t divorce that husband. I didn’t fall out of love with him. He simply went away one day and never returned. I shall meet him another day at the gate where St. Peter will say, “Hello”. Least I’m hoping to find him there…hoping to find ME there!
To me a husband is more than just a man who sleeps beside me. To me a husband is the best friend I have. The one who laughs with me. The one I can count on and the one who can count on me, regardless of what comes along. Understanding and communication must be among his strengths. Affection ranks high on that list as well. A man must be able to give and to recieve touches from his mate. Touching is essential to loving.
There was a question asked the other day on the radio. Do you consider your potential mate’s zodiac sign when you’re out there looking for that mate? I think a zodiac sign is a good indicator of whether I’m gonna get along with a man or not but I don’t avoid people cause of their zodiac sign. I love librans but they and taurus don’t make good partners in love. They make cooperative and passionate sex partners but the librans can’t abide a taurus’ laidback, I don’t really give a crap attitude. We taureans are an unsocialable lot at times, where librans like to be the head showman. Every libran I’ve ever known was that way! Every libran I’ve ever known, man and woman, I’ve loved with a fierceness felt only for those born under that sign. Their charm will draw you in like a moth to a flame. For librans inevitably don’t stay for a lifetime. They leave behind wonderful memories though.
I won’t be marrying a libran! I want my husband to be there always.
Maybe that’s part of my problem with having no husband ten years after the first one died. I keep falling for those librans and avoiding the scorpio men because the scorpio men I’ve known in the past, who as a taurus, I should get along perfectly with…have always done me wrong in someway. Libran men treat me like a queen for a time. All women want to be adored! All of them!!! I just don’t know. Those librans are just too damned good at what they do~!

Mistakes are the price we pay for a full life. Oh yes! Sophia was right! But you know what? You never succeed if you never fail. Failure is akin to mistakes. Fall down. Get right back up and do it all over again! That is what leads to succees…in any kind of endeavor! That’s my intention… to endeavor to succeed. Life without regret.
And then there’s that thing called regret…we all have a bit of it tucked away deep inside. Is it really a memory you’d like to lose? I think I’ll keep mine for reference when I feel I can’t get up again.
I’ll keep on working on this goal.

Still no potential husband in sight!
Hell for that matter, still no potential man-friend in sight! I refuse to call them boyfriends. I don’t know why that term makes me think of high school and the jerks that teenage boys can be~! I don’t want a boy. I want a man!
And that one I have my eye on, he is uncooperative. Pays me no attention whatsoever unless it’s his idea! Don’t think I want that for the long term anyway. He doesn’t seem to want to be in it for the long haul himself. Would kinda defeat the purpose knowing that!
I’m still working on this one and I’m NOT giving up till I achieve it!

I’m still no closer to finding a husband than I was two weeks ago. It isn’t so much that I need a man sleeping in my bed, waking with me in the mornings, it is that I want a man there.
That man is not in my sight at the moment.
My friend Courtney has an uncle that she thinks needs a woman. I sat and talked to her Uncle Mott for almost two hours one day. He is a nice man, but he gave absolutely no indication that he was in need of a woman for ANY reason. We had a great talk. It was a warm conversation. He knows I’m single. Courtney has told him, I am sure! He’s a bit older than I, perhaps in his late forties. I am 45.
I have seen Mott three or four times since we had that nice conversation at the cafe over coffe that began with a random meeting. He still gives no indication that he wants anything to do with me.
So, I’m still working on this one.
The title to this entry comes from another man in my life who should take into consideration the feelings of others while he considers his own as well.

Still passively working on this goal. Seems like I’m getting nowhere with it actually!

A husband isn’t just a companion when times are good. He is a comforter when times are bad as well.
Being a wife is a full time job. I was one for seventeen years. I miss that job terribly these days.
Hugs and kisses should not be hidden away only in the bedroom. They should be shown by both parties in the light of day, among others, in view of thier children, involving their children.
It takes two to make that combination of husband and wife work. One can’t be good at that occupation without the other being good at it as well. Happiness shared is pain divided.
This goal will be accomplished in due time. This isn’t something you go out and get in one day’s time! I’m a patient soul. I’m not waiting for Mr. Right. I’m living for the right man! We will hook up one fine day!