document my life better

I have been documenting my life lately but not here. I miss it. I owe my LIFE! to 43things.com. The support I have gained here has been incomparable to anything in my history. It put me in the place I needed to be. I need to revisit more often to give support to all the others in the early stages of getting where I’m at now. Thank you 43things.com. I am no longer an alcoholic, I have lost more than 40 pounds, I have learned to set goals and follow them through! I am LIVING and all I needed the whole time was a little support. Thanks to ‘make new friends’ I have my own support network these days and HONESTLY I couldn’t have pulled myself out of the darkness I was in if not for help.

xoxo,
Heather Rae Hatton

...I have to figure out some kind of system to organize the documentation so I feel more in control of things.

I haven’t left my house w/o my cam and notebook. Feel like I will actually be able to remember these days in the distant future when I look back. Go me!

Being reunited with my old stuff has also put all of my childhood and teenage journals into my hands! I used to write EVERY day. I hope that reading some of this stuff will encourage me to start again.

I can’t remember the last time he crossed my mind but last night Stirling was in my dream. He’s an ex-bf from when I was 15. I was visiting PA and I went to church w/my grandmother. He happened to attend her church. I saw him in the parking lot and at first he tried avoiding me. He wouldn’t talk to me until I convinced him that I was over him and had a boyfriend of 2yrs who I was living with. We had a very strange interaction over a dinnertable during which you orally gave me a written survey concerning my life. One question was regarding my boyfriend, whether or not I planned on being with him forever and none of the answers seemed appropriate so I chose other. Then he seemed more interested in me and moved closer but there was a flood and we all had to escape on wooden boats. I also had a little dog in the dream and there was a ton of great food at the dinner. I sent him a message telling him that I dreamt about him and he responded with the following,

“I had a dream that I came home and there where these huge rats everywhere. My wife hates rats, so I had to try and get them to go back in to the walls so she wouldn’t see them. I was chasing them around with a pillow yelling at the top of my lungs, but I lost my voice so I sounded just like a donkey.

I think the rats had human faces. But none of them where you. Thats probably a good thing though.

Thanks for thinking of me?

Cheers,
-stirling”

I haven’t talked to him in years or thought of him either so this little interaction is a little strange and uncommon. Just wanted to jot it down.

But I am going to leave it on my list for awhile yet… At least until I am ready to check the ‘update my 43things list daily’ off my list which will be after I’ve been consistent for 28 days.

Not because I haven’t done positive things, but for some reason I just haven’t been doing it since I originally started. This is something I would like to work up to making habit. Maybe I’ll make it a goal when I clear one off the list. I am however documenting my life better. I have been coming here to 43things every day since I joined and it has definitely been a good outlet for documentation.

I like my ‘Positive things I did today’ list but I find that if I don’t write things down consistently through the day I can’t come up with as much stuff for the list. If I had a smaller notebook it would be more accessible to keep tabs on.

It’s entitled ‘Positive things I did today’ and I envision this being the best documentation possible. I don’t want to focus on or remember the negative, right?