Complete "The Artist's Way"

I’m holding off on week 4, cause I really don’t wanna do reading deprivation! For me I also feel that it should include time spent online and time playing my ds. I really don’t want too, which means I really probably should. meh!

Well, I’ve been really good, writing pages nearly very day since April but it’s taken me till now to actually start doing the exercises as well. Feeling really happy about starting over properly again. Need to get further than week five this time! I’ve been feeling kinda stuck for a while, so it feels good too be making some room in my brain for some creativity, already done some yoga and some creative writing – hurray!

since november at a point where i was really frustrated. But started again yesterday, and read some of the book again which i haven’t done in an even longer time. As its the new year, i think it’s time to start over with this from the beginning. I remember how hopeful and positive i felt when i began this last year, and i certainly wouldn’t have got an artists way inspired tattoo if it wasn’t having a profound effect would I?
Here’s to new starts and doing week one again!

i missed my pages and started doing them again. dont know if i’m gonna be a slave to em and do em every day though. there is still a lot to be said for having a lie in!

doing morning pages anymore. i tell myself i’m just having a break from them but am i really? I didn’t feel like i was finding any new insights, just going through the motions. they’d become a chore, something i should be doing and while that probably points at a blockage that i dont want to face up to, at the moment i’m quite happy not doing them and getting more sleep!

I already wrote about this cause it completed one of my other goals, but yesterday i got my artists way inspired tattoo, “Progress not perfection” written on my wrist. I’m so happy i did it!

I feel like I’m going through the mill at the moment. I can commit to morning pages and nothing else. When i started this i felt so positive but now…
I feel miserable and writing about it, i can see the reasons why. My partner thinks it’s writing the pages that makes me sad but i think if i wasn’t putting on the page it would still be inside me, i wouldn’t be facing up to it. Is it better to examine this or better to pretend i dont feel like this. The answer’s obvious isn’t it? Face up to it, but dont get bogged down by it. Life just feels like hard work at the moment. I want to feel happy and joyous. I want to know where i fit in the scheme of things. I want to find my true self again, I’m sick and tired of being so damn anxious and worried about everything! I want the glass to be half full! Or overflowing, i want the glass to be overflowing with abundance and good things!

i can check off one of my week six tasks, cause i just made peanut butter and banana cookies.

has actually taken six weeks so far! I’m not doing too well on this at the moment. I write my morning pages faithfully but thats all. I cant seem to make time for myself to do artists dates and can’t do the exercises. Even though I’m doing the pages, i feel like i’m thinking how i used too and that’s not good. I’m falling back into my rut, and it was so good to feel like I was calling crawling out of it. Progress not perfection. progress not perfection. progress not perfection! Is it still progress if you’re going so slowly it almost feels like you’re going backwards? I liked the person i felt i was becoming, and i really hope i can get her (me!) back!

On week five at the mo. Feeling really resistant to it. You cant have everything you want, life doesnt work like that! Why am i so switched off to this idea that i deserve and am allowed to have good things.