find inner peace

Letting go of the “Woe is me” attitude will help too. Bad things happen to both good and bad people. It’s just the way the world works. If we didn’t have the bad, we wouldn’t appreciate the good. I guess I just have to start enjoying life for the good things and try not to ponder on the bad so much. I just need to get over the “the world is out to get me” mentality and realize that’s not realistic. I believe I’m a good person and that, in this life, bad things will happen sometimes. But it’s never more than I can handle. Trying to keep myself on this structured path is unrealistic. I’m trying to have too much control and you can’t have control of everything. If you try to have control of everything, you just buckle under when things don’t go your way. Letting go is hard, but it needs to be done sometimes. As the cliche motto goes, “Life’s too short.”

That’s what I do everyday. I worry all the time. I just need to realize that some things in life are just the way they are. There are a lot of things in this society that really bother me: the oversexualization, the self-concerned opportunistic attitude, and the fast-paced-can-barely-take-a-second-to-breathe mentality just to name a few. But I need to realize that if there is something that I just can’t change, I just need to let it go. There are just things I have no control over, especially when it comes to why people act the way they do. I can analyze and hypothesize all I want, I will just be left with more anxiety and a nagging headache. I just need to learn how to breathe. There’s no point in worrying about what could happen because whatever is going to happen will happen. Maybe I just to stop trying to put the world on my shoulders and give it up to a higher power. I’m not a religious person, but I think giving up some control to God can bring peace of mind. I’m only human and I’m giving myself more worry than I have to.

Yeah, this is definitely not going to happen overnight. There are still a lot of things on my plate that I need to figure out before I would even be close to inner peace. But I would like to think that it is not that far down the road.