Most people find somebody eventually right?????
right???
i’m having a low self esteem day. I saw a pic of me in my bathing suit and i just wanted to vomit. After my big speil to my friend how people should not complain about their bodies and just be happy and healthy….i’ve totally sunk into the deep end in that area. No matter how much i try it seems to never be enough. I’m tired of having an embarassing body …. and i’m tired of that keeping me down.
i just want to be happy with myself for ONCE in my life. Why is does the root of everything that makes me happy seem to come down to FAT and society.
heavier people don’t bother me….so why am i bothered to feel like one of them?
b/c guys don’t like that and i’m afraid i’ll just end being alone because i don’t have the perfect body. I’m not perfectly thin: i have hips!, I’m not strong, i’m pale, my hair isn’t voluminous, i’m not athletic, i’m clumsy etc etc.
why can’t i just be what i tell everyone else? Embrace differences etc..UGH…
why is it never enough? I eat right, i work out every day…what else can one do?
i really do think i’m pretty though…i guess i’ll just give up on my fantasy of having a swimsuit body. I’ll just have to be thankful i don’t live by the ocean.
boo and hoo
