Grow Girl-balls

Remove all becoming, you are Being.
Becoming is effort, Being is not effort.
You are always That so be like the breeze
that is attached to neither the garbage nor
the garden that it blows over.
-Papaji

Someone reminded me that I already have imaginary girl-balls. Knocking this one off the list.. :)

“girl balls”.

I feel like crying right now. I was the top salesperson last month & I was expecting a really fat commission, but because I have integrity & gave everyone the lowest possible price & because I let every rich asshole get a discount just because he demanded it, (always asked my boss first, of course) my commission is going to be much, much smaller than what I was expecting. Much.

I took abuse, people! Verbal abuse. From a tacky redneck in Pasa-get-down-dena! Eff that S! He drives a lamborghini (sp?) and he treated me like dirt for a lower price. Just regarding that one job (and I spent hours with this rude man.. also, everytime I was there he was drunk).. if he hadn’t received any discounts at all, my commission would have been a little over $9000, but because I let him run things and get whatever he wanted (just because he demanded it), my commission for that job is only going to be around $2000. You can’t go to a store and throw a fit & say “This tag says it’s $300, but I’m only going to pay $50”. NO. Doesn’t work that way!

I’m going to be growing some imaginary girl-balls. and giving everyone some serious mark-ups.