trust my intuition

u know what naanu.. u can’t help in it.. u only can pray..
i know it’s disturbance.. it’s uncertainty…

as it is.. u don’ trust them easily.. u want more details.. u have stoped meditation n reiki practice for years ago.. so why don’t u just ignore it..
this is has to happen..
u hardy believe n always skeptical abt wht u feel.. even u ignore what u see in dreams.. that u even u don’t believe what u see..
better not to think abt them..

*why i don't trust them..

might b answer is simple.. fear of what if they are wrong..

but on the contrary, at every time they were right..

listen guesses can b wrong rs.. not intuitions.. all the time u console as if its just ur guesswork.. this is what u r trying to do all the time.. n even the 2nd thing is guesses also can turn up right.. doesn’t it..

i remember when i was in 10th at that time one of my family member who was aware of these always had asking wht going to happen next. & i used to get irritated.. as intuitions are just hunches.. which i can’t control.. n those wasn’t in my hand..

more over… after some year that person always skeptical abt me.. always doubted on me that i read her thoughts.. or i do something with her.. i was feeling soooo depressed.. but i know i never tried it.. actually i had low confidence abt myself, low self esteem most of the time to do anything like that..

but i had lost all my self-control & self trust in all these things..
it was always too difficult to meditate in front of them as i was caring abt what will they think… it ruined all the things n my thoughts..

now a days .. these intuitions tells me what i don’t want.. again i wish to ignore it as it hurts… ok.. let it go…
u know what the only thing is in ur hand… pray..

in this intuitions, that unknown twist in stomach.. that something going to b wrong..
but its mostly that things are turn up which i think it is wrong.. or the things those i feel bad.. those are not necessarily really bad for me n my life but can create some stress for that time..
when i was so much caring abt others.. i was always full of these turmoil intuitions..
i don’t know how these can help me.. most of the time i consider them when they occur.. as..it might b one of fear of mine..

why n what are u expecting? what do u want? what do u want to say? what are u insecure abt? tell me..

i think u are not getting answers cause.. this is not the time… god wants u to concentrate on other important stuff in ur life at this time… work all your assignments stufff n other relationships.. mum.. mav.. etc..

that day.. when i was going to the optician.. before leaving the home. i said at least for thrice to mav that.. i think i should go tommorrow, n today i will finish this stuff… again while at the door i said to siddh.. why i feel i must go tommorrow???.. n when we reached there.. that shop was closed…

many times it happens n i ignore it all the time… somehow i m so firm on i don’t want listen anything of myself.. i console myself that its just my fear..

thanks that i m back to same state of thinking…
whatever going to happen is for good reason…

let’s see what is that? only 2 possibilities.. either i could be a wrong or right…
but hope i will get answer soon….
hard part is always to wait.. but universe knows when there is the right time for me to get all my answers…