live in the moment

getting upset again n again… how many times i will embrace those negativity from people n let myself down.. loose my self-esteem..
for how many time i will embrace those same pain of failed expectations..

i don’t want to think at all… but again n again i fail in same trap.. why m i thinking abt others?
i get irritate to write down all thoughts.. n feel like i can’t write them down.. n i easily procrastinate the witting procedure… i need to change this habit..

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with whomever i spend the time.. i need to watch out for changes in my thinking.. daily need to do concentration practice.. as i ve become weakest in that.. may b that is not the case.. but still… i need to improve it…

u r getting distract.. again n again..
rs.. whatever the reason.. u ve clung to past..

the time was there.. when i was reading bham’s article.. i was thinking.. no man.. how can it possible, to thinking abt past n that cause misery.. i always thought daydreaming cause misery..

n now i have totally become that person who is not ready to let go the past.. which is not in my hand.. i can’t change..
i dont know where’s that attitude has gone? living only for the day..
i had totally lost that imp thing with my self respect..
need to rehabilitate it..

it just feels to close the eyes & think abt that particular (thing…. ummmm ok. person).. Daydream abt it.. which is not really, practically in present.. but feels it is there.. or is it just desire?.. which is not true.. because it was there in past..
but the crucial point is whatever now u have in ur life that is yours.. it’s not imp whether it will be or not..
tut.. tut..
thinking won’t give u, what u want. unless there some actions in present.. so stop thinking abt it..

why u r being so harsh on yourself…
its imp to look at next step… u can.. why are u looking at if u missed somthing or get wrong at sometime…
is ok..
stop this being perfectionists… n it will take some time…

if u can remember that time… it took time..
at least 3weeks- 21days… to become habit…. so look t what u got to do next…

i understand that some negative feeling had merged on my mind that i can’t able live in the moment… or can’t able to go back on that state…

i have had that habit.. so i think i need to just push myself a bit… but for now for long time about 3-4 years i m pressing on that its not possible now…

OK…SAR.. let us consider that u never done it before… so try it now…. just have to think abt present…

main points u have to remember.. no need to listen everything that ur family said… n i know living in moment always make u feel being different from others… so don’t be afraid of it… join any good yoga or meditation classes… so u can interact with such people…