be a happy person

I am starting to see that to be happy is about letting go and letting god!

Another book well worth the reas is the happiness makeover, it is making sense. However, am feeling that the best option is still to start taking the Lexapro the doctor gave me… but will that make me happy or numb?

Okay… I have been looking at this and with starting to read a book called Absolute Happiness, I am beginning to question what does it mean to be a happy person. I have been spending too much time focusing on the external outputs and not on the emotion. Now I am trying to get intouch with the emotions.

I was happy being FRED like yesterday. I was happy to have been the bigger person and made the effort to visit people I havent seen in years. I was happy cleaning up my house. But that is the external… still working on what makes me happy inside of me.

I’m still unhappy and the worst part is that when I read my journal that commenced about 5 years ago the recurrent themes are still there. I so need to find a way to get past whatever it is that I have generated to block my happiness

Why is everyone here so happy except me?
“Because they have learned to see goodness and beauty everywhere,” said the Master.
Why don’t I see goodness and beauty everywhere?
“Because you cannot see outside of you what you fail to see inside.”

If only I knew what would turn this frown upside down. There are things that make me happy and times that I am happy, but I’m not a happy person. I find so much of my life is filled with complaints, negativity and running racquets. I wish I knew how to stop all of that and be contented in my life.