thoroughly research and follow a new career path

I’ve wondered on and off throughout my life if the things that really matter always do and that while they may change in shape or intensity, they will stick by and with you until you make them come true.

In my case, this equals family, friends, opening a cafe, writing, and teaching. I’ve been a bit intimidated by it, yes, and I’ve waffled, but I think I may be finally ready to do this thing and put my whole self into it.

My only problems now are which state do I move to and how do I pay for this? Conundrums both, but to have even a vague idea of what this might mean has gotten me breathing again and for that, I am incredibly grateful.

When I created this goal, what I originally had in mind was facilitation, consultation, or mediation—essentially, a conflict resolution kind of gig. I thought I might kind of love helping other people through their problems, bring a fresh perspective and lend some clarity to a fuzzy situation.

I got stuck somewhere along the way, though, and started again submitting myself to a sinking, slacking, horrifying economy and began to look for any employer who would take me. I can’t sit around and be underutilized and abused by a racist organization, after all.

After a serious downward spiral and a total lack of clarity, prayers were answered and suddenly, I’m throwing around the idea of going back to school and getting my teaching license…I’m thinking I’d love to teaching possibly grades 2-5.

There’s a ton of backstory so far only Lauren has the whole of, but suffice it to say I’ve thought about teaching for probably 15 years and never pursued it because I was too scared to, too lacking in confidence to. So it’s certainly a new pursuit, one that deserves a lot of research and one I hope to track a little here.