Fall in love

I’m scared to fail at love again, but I know that thinking that way puts me at a disadvantage already. So, I try to change my mindset and think positive or try not to think at all and let things happen. I question my choices though. I’ve made some bad ones and I don’t want to repeat them. I don’t have a problem being alone and quite frankly the last 6 years I’ve spent most of my time alone, if I’m not at work. So, I guess I get a taste of it and then I crave it, but then I’m like a starving person that goes shopping for groceries. You buy way too much or get things that aren’t good for you! I want to trust myself and my choices, but I want to find love so much that sometimes I know I can’t trust myself because I’m probably making hasty decisions. HELP! One breath at a time I know…It’s so hard when it’s the one thing in the world you want, but the one thing you don’t have.