why is it that i always feel alone i honestly don’t want to be alne plzz i don’t want to be alone do you know how sad i am would you ever care why cann’t i c you for one last time do you hate me that much steve i hate you so muchhh but i still will never regret likine you i will never you will awlawys be number one its just that i really want someone that won’t leave me no matter what that will be there that wants to hang out with me and i can hang out with them witout all that awkwardness why can’t i be normal like odd times i don’t want to be sad anymore i don’t want to think about you 24-7 i don’t want to cry about you anymore i don’t want to have to listen to music to make me feel better i want a good night sleep i want someone that won’t leave me
alwaysaloneagain has written 2 entries about this goal
i can finally tell someone all my feeling without feeling like they can joudge me i’m 15 and you probley think wow whats she doing here but honeslty i have to say age doesn’t matter for this it began cuz i like this one kid named dan but then i was a coward i hate getting hurt so i forced myself to like this kid name Stephen this was the summer of when i was going to be a 7th grader i didn’t think he was going to hurt me and he didn’t i hurt myself once again i kept blaming things on him but it wasn’t his fault it was always my fault the truth is i never knew if he liked me or not cuz my church reason but not just that he was my brothers friend plus i couldn’t get to talk to m ecuz our previous arguments that we had i couldn’t face him cuz in reality i started that cuz i wanted him to notice me but the thing you have to unferstand is that i really love stephen i do he all i think about hes everything i need since he been gone in feb i’ve been dying ive been so lonley crying myself to bed almost every night no craving food like i used to shutting plp our i tried everything to get over a person possibly idon’t know if i’m scared to liek a person no in fact i am i hate being alone cuz ive been alone to many times but steph he left me with so much good memeoreis i’m thankful stephen i wish can see you one more time to finally let go but thats not possibley but be happy cuz thats the only thing i want from you becasue i will always love you even when i let you go you will always be here in my heart haha corny yesss but this nearly doesn’t even express what nearly want to say but i guess it will do
