Make my parents proud

How do you know when you make them proud? What makes them proud? I wish I knew. I struggle with this so often. I’m daddy’s little girl. I just want him to tell me he loves me, and I’m perfect, and that I’ll be successful at whatever I do—and for him to mean it with his whole heart. I do so much, especially compared to my three brothers, but I still feel like it’s not enough. I feel like he’s not proud of me… 18 units, plus work, plus doing everything they ask me to do… What more does it take?

All I’ve ever wanted was to make my parents proud of me…make SOMEONE proud of me… but it’s like the harder I try, the less it seems to happen. Just to hear them say “I’m proud of you” or even, “I love you”, would mean the world to me.
Graduating from high school with honors didn’t do it.
Getting my own car didn’t do it.
Working my way through school hasn’t done it…
What will??

Everytime I think I’m close, I let them down.
They’re proud that I gave up my summer to work at a Christian summer camp, but then they find out I lost my virginity…

All I’ve ever wanted was to hear those words “I’m proud of you”

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That’s all.

What does it take to be a good daughter?

I go to church, I live right, I work my way through school, I don’t ask them for anything. I do what I’m asked to do. I try so hard. But it’s never never never never never enough…