post random thoughts and poems when the moods strikes me

DailyOm I love this – they even has inspirational horoscopes!

Posive glow
perfect place
beautiful life
glorious face
beautiful goddess
energy seek
protected by the strong
to save the weak
loving to all
glorious one
heavenly manifest
of all that is to come
bringing to earth
lovingness and light
help us to learn to
give up this fight
turn our energies
towards what is right
and banish the dark
back into the night

1. Pluto always has been and always will be one of the main planets, not some “dwarf” planet, damnit!

2. RIP, Steve Irwin, you will be sorely missed by many, many, many people.

NEW TEXAN’S DIARY

May 30th:

Just moved to Dallas , Texas .
Now this is a city that knows how to live!!
Beautiful sunny days and warm balmy evenings. What a place!
I watched the sunset from a park lying on a blanket.
It was beautiful. I’ve finally found my home. I love it here.

June 14th:

Really heating up. Got to 100 today. Not a problem. Live in an
air-conditioned home, drive an air-conditioned car. What a pleasure to see the sun everyday like this. I’m turning into a sun worshiper.

June 30th:

Had the backyard landscaped with western plants today. Lots of cactus and rocks. What a breeze to maintain.
No more mowing lawn for me. Another scorcher today, but I love it here.

July 10th:

The temperature hasn’t been below 100 all week. How do people get used to this kind of heat? At least it’s kind of windy though. But getting used to the heat and humidity is taking longer that I expected.

July 15th:

Fell asleep by the pool. (Got 3rd degree burns over 60% of my body). Missed 3 days of work What a dumb thing to do. I learned my lesson though. Got to respect the ol’ sun in a climate like this.

July 20th:

I missed Morgan (our cat) sneaking into the car when I left this
morning. By the time I got to the hot car for lunch, Morgan had died and swollen up to the size of a shopping bag and stank up the $2,000 leather upholstery. I told the kids that she ran away. The car now smells like Kibbles and shits. I learned my lesson though. No more pets in this heat.

July 25th:

The wind sucks.. It feels like a giant freaking blow dryer!! And it’s hot as hell. The home air-conditioner is not working and the AC repairman charged $200 just to drive by and tell me he needed to order parts.

July 30th:

Been sleeping outside by the pool for 3 nights now. $1,500 in damn house payments and we can’t even go inside. Why did I ever come here?

Aug. 4th:

It’s 115 degrees. Finally got the air-conditioner fixed today. It cost $500 and gets the temperature down to 85, but this freaking humidity makes the house feel like it’s about 95. Stupid repairman. I hate this stupid city.

Aug. 8th:

If another wise ass asks, “Hot enough for you today?” I’m going to strangle him. Damn heat. By the time I get to work the radiator is boiling over, my clothes are soaking wet, and I smell like baked cat!!

Aug. 9th:

Tried to run some errands after work. Wore shorts, and sat on the black leather seats in the ol’ car. I thought my ass was on fire. I lost 2 layers of flesh and all the hair on the back of my legs and ass. Now my car smells like burnt hair, fried ass, and baked cat.

Aug. 10th:

The weather report might as well be a damn recording. Hot and sunny. Hot and sunny. Hot and sunny. It’s been too hot to do shit for 2 damn months and the weatherman says it might really warm up next week. Doesn’t it ever rain in this damn desert? Water rationing now, so my $1700 worth of cactus just dried up and blew into the damn pool. Even the cactus can’t live in this damn heat.

Aug. 14th:

Welcome to HELL!!! Temperature got to 115 today. Forgot to crack the window and blew the damn windshield out of the car. The installer came to fix it and said, “Hot enough for you today?” My wife had to spend the $1500 house payment to bail me out of jail.

Freaking Texas . What kind of a sick demented idiot would want to live here…

“The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.”

—Carlos Castaneda

I’ve been listening to this song alot lately. I really love the lyrics.

Let Your Troubles Roll ByCarbon Leaf

Love endures, it clings away
when asked to leave, it begs to stay
like the perfect song at imperfect times
it’s the way the chords struck with the rhymes
so let your troubles roll by

He knows he can help himself
he can tell by a look at the books on his shelf
and someone somewhere loses her son
before her own sunset is set and done
and she dreams of sunflowers bent over
frozen in the snow and thinks Colorado
but then plays her life back in slow motion
to keep in touch with that raw emotion
in the night crushed empty can
Olive Oyl’s waiting for her man
to come in from the fight that will change their life
for good this time

when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
let your troubles roll by

like new years eve tonight’s underway
but tomorrow you’ll wake up afraid of the day
‘cause underneath the scars of your broken dreams
an undone war still wages and stings
you fear the year will blow like a breeze through
a rainbow you swear it’s there but you can’t grab a hold
so you sit and cry and wonder why why

when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
let your troubles roll by

so many cities and windows and lives
and through each one there’s a soul that strives to survive
so pay no mind, my sorrow’s fine
the day is alive and that’s why i cry
it’s a new year toast, grab your list to conspire
the last snake hissed as he was thrown in the fire
you’ve come far and though you’re far from the end
you don’t mind where you are ‘cause you know where you’ve been
like a culture vulture sprawled out on the floor
like a dead devil sailor washed up on the shore
with nothing of note but the old captain’s coat
and a burning boat you just sank with your salty
tears dry, let your troubles roll by

when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
when all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by
let your troubles roll by

Piece of man’s skull falls off, draws crowds
By Bappa Majumdar
Wed Jul 5, 7:58 AM ET

KOLKATA, India (Reuters) – Hundreds of people are thronging a hospital in the eastern Indian city of Kolkata to see a patient holding a piece of his own skull that fell off.

Doctors say a large, dead section of 25-year-old electrician Sambhu Roy’s skull came away Sunday after severe burns starved it of blood.

“When he came to us late last year, his scalp was completely burned and within months it came off exposing the skull,” Ratan Lal Bandyopadhyay, the surgeon who treated Roy told Reuters Wednesday.

“Later, we noticed that the part of his skull was loosening due to lack of blood supply to the affected area, which can happen in such extensive burn cases.”

The piece came off Sunday and hundreds of people and dozens of doctors now crowd around his bed, where he lies holding the bone.

Bandyopadhyay said the skull’s inner covering and the membrane which helps produce bone was miraculously unaffected, allowing fresh bone to grow.

“When the skull came off, I thought he will die, but we noticed a new covering on his head forming and that might have pushed the ‘dead skull’ out,” he said.

While possible, such cases are extremely rare.

Roy was injured and almost killed when he was electrocuted while repairing a high voltage wire last October.

“Doctors say a new skull covering has replaced the old one, but I am not letting go of this one,” he told Reuters.

He intends to keep his prized possession for life and not hand it over to the hospital when he leaves: “My skull has made me famous,” he says.

I wrote this in 1998, for a friend who had just experienced the loss of her husband. I still really like it, so I thought I would share it.

DARKNESS BEFORE LIGHT

There was a time
When I was worried,
When I thought my life would
Never be good again.
There was a time
When I was hurried.
After all,
Time is limited until
We are called back Above.
We have but one life
And we must live it
The best we can
We must be a better
Woman, child, or man
But you come to see
That through even
Heartbreak and misery
Life still has its’ own
Shining light
It calls, It beckons
It leads us forth
Through the shadows
Of our lives
And sometimes of our
Own minds
Into brighter times
And happier days
Where small pleasures
Can be the best kind,
And life is worth living
Again.

how very much this website restores my faith in humanity. Everyday I see evidence of how ugly people can be to one another, of how ugly we even can be to ourselves. And then I come here, and I am reminded that not everyone is like that, that good does exist, and that others really are worth caring for, giving my time to, etc. It’s really an empowering realization, each and every time.

Rain
Soothing
(Mist)ifyingly silent
Thunderously calming
Emollient for my weathered soul
I think I might be part
Tree, or plant
That my roots need
the natural moisture
that rain provides
I know –
Maybe I’m part
Dryad!
It’s strange
But when it rains
Its like all the molecules that
Are trying to run headlong into
Each other constantly inside me
All slow down, and relax
I feel
Peaceful
Restored
Calmed
Restful
Even hard thunderstorms
Just make me happy
I love the thunder and the lightning
The wind and the rain
It’s like nature’s ballet
Or maybe opera