stop picking my skin

Being married for a year has really helped. My life is so much less stressful now that I’m out of college and out of my Mom’s house. It took awhile. It was still really bad the first 6 months or so of our marriage. I pick him more than I pick myself, but I’ve learned to “ask permission” first most of the time.

not myself anyway, but I pick my husband’s pimples like crazy and he hates it

Now I pick my poor husband instead! He hates it, I drive him crazy. :(

I’ve got some kind of wheat allergy or sensitivity and every time I eat it I get horrible acne (in addition to digestive unpleasantness). Which I then pick like crazy. yuck. I haven’t been able to stop touching my face completely, but I made a conscious decision to reduce the picking two days ago because I was really tired of how my face looked. It’s already feeling much smoother and looking better. I feel encouraged to reduce my picking even further :)

So I’ve been at a really low point lately. Struggling with feeling tired, overwhelmed, obsessive, controlled by my obsessions and depressed.
I don’t want to live like that.
I’m starting as I type.
I’m going to try inositol again. I wasn’t consistent about taking it before. 3 teaspoons 3x a day. I’ll let you know how it goes.

because I’m not sure that I’ll ever stop.
I don’t even think I want to.
This is the only thing I do consistently, every single day without fail.
I really enjoy picking. I know its sick, but I love doing it. It feels great. That sounds so warped but its really how I feel.

I freaking love to pick at my face.

that I’m still not done with this goal

here’s my face sans makeup today (left) vs a year ago (right)

this is so encouraging to me, because I still struggle with picking sometimes, but usually I don’t struggle, usually I just give in without a fight. I haven’t quit, but I didn’t realize that I’m doing better :D It’s not useless. Keep it up

I got a new camera for christmas.
Updating my face pics on here often was really motivating, and now I can do it again.