Beat my depression

I think that for the most part, I got through the worst of it. I have moved on in many areas of my life. Some days my depression slaps me in the face, and I’m not sure what will happen if I ever stop taking my Prozac, but until then, I think I can cope.

If things continue to get better and I don’t relapse, I might say that this goal of mine is complete. I feel like I’ll have the depression with me for a very long time, but the worst part has got to be over.

I have been on my Prozac and taking supplements for my mood, and it has changed my life for the better, but if I forget to take the pill for two days—I am miserable again and back to my suicidal thoughts. I don’t want to live forever taking Prozac just to get through a day.

I have been doing so much better with this. I went to an all natural doctor who is supposedly brilliant, and he said that I am hypoglycemic. I’ve been taking supplements and drinking a protein shake every day. I’m still on the Prozac, as well. On my third bottle now. Something else that I’m sure is helping, is that I’m not going to school right now. School put a massive amount of stress and worry on me, and made me absolutely miserable. I’m taking a small brake to get myself together, and lately I’ve had more energy, I want to do more and I’ve been in an all around good mood and pretty positive for the most part. Of course there are still things that deeply bother me, but it’s different now, because instead of reminding myself of these problems every day, and hating everything going on, I’m just..not. So, I suppose I could actually be hypoglycemic, but I still want to get tested for it. And I don’t know whether or not he was saying that my depression was mis-diagnosed, but I don’t believe that, and certainly won’t base my diagnosis through the words of one doctor. I still hold back from quite a lot though, so maybe that will improve, as well. Or not, who knows.

I’m on 10mg of Prozac right now. I’ve been on it for close to two weeks but the side effects are worsening and my psychiatrist wants me to stop taking it. I don’t want to though because I feel that this may actually help me, so I’m taking it every other day. My depression is really keeping me from doing a lot right now, it’s the worst it’s ever been. Hopefully after a few months, or however long it takes for an anti-depressant to kick in, I’ll start to feel better, if this is something that will help.