pray more

I guess I did a good job of praying this past weekend. Better than usual at least :) I prayed a rosary in this beautiful spot we have, and thought about people who really need help. I couldn’t help but feel selfish though while praying, somehow I feel like I’m only doing it so I feel better about myself. I don’t like that feeling. I was also praying to forget certain things that had happened. I hope soon that I can do it with all focus towards other people.

I need to be better about this one.

well, my friend’s mom died yesterday. He does not have any family alive now, so I think he really needs support. I’m far away, so its somewhat difficult to give this to him.
Anyway, I really need to keep him in my thoughts and prayers.

Praying has been really positive for me. I’ve prayed consistently for about a week and a half. Mostly I pray for people in my life, but also strangers who are struggling.
I do this before I go to bed, and sometimes I just pray for a little strength.

I keep getting amazing, AMAZING signs. When those little things happen, you just can’t help but feel so close to God. Everything turns out to be perfectly orchestrated for each person, and they just don’t know it. Like, one guy today wore the jersey of the country my love is from :) If I had any doubts in my mind as to whether to take a risk with this person or not (which I think about), this simple shirt just made me feel at ease. I saw it a few days ago on a native, and today I saw it on just some blonde guy. Then he crossed in front of me AGAIN later in the day. And it is a country which I didn’t expect to hear much of, considering I’m living in the middle of nowhere, USA. Little does he know that his shirt made me feel less alone and as though it was God’s voice talking directly to me.

be open to the signs!

I just found out that a guy in my grade died in a terrible accident. But there were things about the accident I didn’t know before. He was trying to save someone’s life, and he did. I can’t get over it. His sections in the yearbook are dedicated to his family…and express his excitement for the future. Well we all think the future is so certain. It’s hard not to.

I pray for him. I pray for his family, friends, everyone in his life.

I’m really trying to pray for OTHER people. Not selfish intentions, but! There’s one thing in life I really really really ache for. I wonder if it’s wrong to pray for.

Well I’ve been trying to pray. The other night I prayed for the victims of the airplane crash in Brazil. What a tragic thing! :( I need to remind myself to pray because I’m thankful for all I’ve been given. God has REALLY been looking out for me lately.