get over my crush

..do I really want to get over him? If I really dug deep, I’d most likely say “no”.

I actually got to spend about an hour or so with my crush with a group of other guys not so long ago. I don’t know what it is with crushes but even with their faults, you still like them. My crush wouldn’t stop talking about other girls (making it really awkward for me since I was the only girl at the table). Most people would call this guy self-absorbed but for some reason, I think he might just be pushing too hard to impress everyone..maybe he’s insecure himself? Fortunately, other girls wasn’t the only thing we talked about.

Even with the half one-sided conversations, I still felt extremely happy after having spent months not speaking to each other. We finally had a long conversation. But then, what is up with people who ignore each other the next time they see each other…after having just talked to each other for a good length of time mere days or weeks ago? Maybe I just need to take more initiative and keep talking to him instead of waiting for him to come talk to me.

I actually had a crush on a coworker a few years ago but then I quit the job (no, I didn’t quit because I wanted to get over my crush) and not having seen him since, I’ve finally stopped crushing on him. I recently found him on Facebook and didn’t feel like I wanted anything more from him other than friendship.

Currently, though…I’ve had a crush on this other guy for 10 months now. We were in the same class together for one semester..the first time I saw him, I just instantly felt drawn to him. That’s honestly the first time I’ve felt like that about anybody. I’ve had crushes before but nothing like this one. We used to not talk to each other at all (I probably came across as a snobby bitch because I was just too scared to try and talk to him)...I tried to find as many reasons as I could not to like this guy and for about a week or two succeeded..but one day, I finally found the guts to initiate a conversation, he jumped right into the conversation and was extremely friendly..and I was crushing all over him again.

Long story short, school’s done..he’s on my Facebook but for the most part, I feel like I’m always the one initiating the conversations. He’ll reply to almost everything (if I start a conversation) but sometimes he doesn’t…and I’m not sure if it’s because he’s not much of a facebook person or if he just doesn’t care to talk to me. Online relationships are limiting for the most part (unless you have a good real life relationship with someone) so I think I’ll give up on trying to talk to him until I see him again once school starts.

I’ve read that a lot of people consider their crushes to be perfect..well, I know my crush isn’t perfect. But I really like him nevertheless. It sucks feeling sad over not feeling noticed by someone you like…part of me wants to get over it already and another part is just amazed that I can feel this strongly for someone.