overcome anxiety and depression

DH and I started marriage counseling today and I found it very helpful. The Therapist wants to meet with just me next week. He says my Dr. was wrong for not recommending therapy along with my medication. He said that I seem very depressed to him and that is what is leading to a lot of DH and my conflicts. He thinks that getting to the root my problems might help with our relationship. I am so happy to finally be getting therapy. It felt so good just to talk to someone about our problems that can help us work through them. With no insurance I thought I would never get any therapy because of the cost, but DH’s work is now offering free therapy for employees and their families. This is the best thing ever!

The anxiety is a lot better since my husband and I have been working on our relationship and finances. It got a little out of hand there for awhile, but things seem to be looking up.

I’m still doing well. I believe that I will always have some anxiety. The medication that I have taken for almost two years now seems to keep me stable most of the time. I was worried about being taken off of it the last time I had a checkup at the doctor, but she assured me that she would not take me off of it as long as I felt I needed it. I can’t imagine going back to the way I felt before medicine. I don’t know how I lived like that or how anyone could stand being around me. I guess they really cared a lot to put up with my behavior. I’m not ready to mark this as DONE, but I do feel like I have made great progress in the past two years.

Well, I made it through another holiday season and am still marginally sane. This year wasn’t that bad actually. Less stress than I’ve had in awhile. The Christmas bonus helped relieve a lot of the money anxiety. This year has gotten off to a good start and I hope it stays that way.

I’ve really been doing well lately. I still get stressed out, I just don’t go crazy about things as much as I used to. I can really see how over time I have been getting better and better. I hope to continue on this path.

Today wasn’t so good. I was really stressed out over getting my photos mounted and dropped off for the State Fair. There were a few tears and some general craziness on my part, but I calmed down after a bit. I still don’t feel all together. i’m Better, but not great. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I have to go back to work tomorrow.

Things have been a little easier lately. I had a nice vacation and will be taking another in a couple of weeks. Money is still an issue, but I have been trying hard not to worry about things too much and just make sure all the bills get paid on time. This helps relieve some of my anxiety if I just relax a bit.

I’m still worried about money. It’s as bad as usual if not worse. I just want to scream. I wouldn’t have as many problems if I could get the money problems straightened out. I want to get caught up on all of my bills and not have to worry about being short before payday. I hate living paycheck to paycheck. I’m am to old to be doing this shit.

Money stress has got to be the worst kind of stress around. This is the stressor that really does me in. I start worrying about money and I feel like I’m on the verge of an anxiety attack. Even with my meds I feel this way sometimes. I wish I had no problems with money. I feel like most of my problems stem from it. Money stress literally makes me sick.

I’ve been doing pretty good lately. No out of control mood swings, no panic attacks, not a lot of bitchiness. My husband told me a few weeks ago that he could really tell a difference between how I am now and how I was. He said that I seem happier these days. I still have bad days every now and then, but so does everyone. I’m not ready to get rid of the meds yet and I don’t know when I’ll ever be ready. I feel like the meds have made all of the changes in me and I’m afraid if I get off of them I’ll go back to the way I was. I don’t want to ever be like that again.