repair my marriage

Next week we are taking our first week of vacation early this year. Our anniversary is on the 20th and we always try to get away for a few days, but this year we are taking a whole week. It will be nice to get away. I really need some time to unwind after the holidays and my store will be moving when I get back. We’re not doing anything really special, just going to the vacation house and relaxing for the week. I kind of wand o see Cumberland Falls in the winter. I’ve only seen it in the summer before.

We had a date night tonight. It was actually kind of nice. We went to dinner and then indulged in a little post holiday shopping for ourselves. After that we just drove around for a bit listening to the radio. Simple yet needed. We are really doing great lately. There hasn’t been too much conflict. I just need to learn not to take some things so personally.

We had a great vacation. Got to relax and enjoy ourselves. I have been really working on keeping our finances straight. This is taking a lot of the stress out of the relationship.

We had an OK week this past week. Not a lot of arguing. I hope this continues. Vacation is in 3 weeks and I want us to be able to relax and have a good time.

I have come to accept that most of the problems that we have are because of me. I lie. I don’t know why. I guess I just want him not to worry about things. He says he wouldn’t be as mad about the money issues if I would just tell him the truth about it. I have not lied to him about anything for 6 days now. I know that is not a lot, but I am working on it. I want to work this out and have a long life together.

I have messed everything up once again. I think he might leave me this time. Of course, it’s all about money. It always is. I was trying to get everything straightened out financially without bothering him about it and he found out that we are behind and he lost it. I deserve it though. I shouldn’t have lied about money. I shouldn’t have lied about anything. Now he is accusing me of cheating on him and that is one thing that I would never do in a million years. I would really like for us to work everything out and grow old together, but I’m not sure if he wants that anymore.

This weekend has been good. We had the house to ourselves. It was very relaxing. It gave us a lot of time together. We needed this.

Somedays I just don’t think that we are going to make it. Today I came home from work sick andhe has been mad at me ever since. I’m not sure what I did wrong. I was sleeping when he got home and he started accusing me of not even going to work. I don’t know where he thought I would be. I even called him from work once today. I truely don’t know what gets into him. If the rest of my life is going to be like this then I don’t want to be married any more. Don’t get me wrong, we have some really great times, but the bad times seem to happen more frequently. I just don’t know what to do.

I wish we were on the same page about our debts. This seems to be a major hotspot for us. I try and try and he wants to spend and spend. I have a lot of resentment towards him over this. He just dosen’t get it and I can’t explain it to him.

I really think we should go to counseling for some of the issues that we have. Maybe having a neutral person to talk things out with would help us work out our problems. Things have been going a lot better, but there are still some things that we need to work on and they all seem to be “hot” topics with us. We always fight when they come up.