I have found it very hard to really find what it is I want to do. I know I am a people person and I loved some of my past jobs particularly-retail and as a tour guide. I loved working with people, being in a small organisation where I get the chance to see how everything works and I have the freedom to move around in a less bureaucratic environment. I am now in a very very bureaucratic environment in a university. I really dont like it but I have got stuck here really. My parents suggested it and it sounded like a good idea at the time. Shortly afterwards, they pushed me to start saving almost half my earnings each month towards a house. So, I still live at home at nearly 25 years old as well. So, I am stuck here, or I have to find a job that pays much much more so that I can afford the costs of transport and such that it would entail, and possibly let me move out of home.
Here is what I have discovered:
1) I LOVE cooking. I love the thought process, the experimenting and I am actively starting to get into this in a big way. That said, I am not sure if it is still just a novelty and brooding instinct because i am so happy with my boyfriend and our relationship. There are days when cooking is the last thing i want to do, but i guess everyone is like that. I have done a short cookery course and loved the atmosphere and everything about it. Maybe I should look at this is a profession?
2) I love people and I want to help people in an educational, mentoring capacity. I did training to be a child mentor and the organisation dropped me. I pushed the issue and now I am designing training units for a parenting course targeting immigrant parents and integration into Irish society. When I discuss this, when I am planning this, things just come so easily. I can easily think of scenarios, useful roleplays and activities to help them to interact, open up and think about things. I am waiting to start training with another organisation instead where I will then teach adults how to read and write. That is where I am really wanting to be, but it is all voluntary and unpaid.
3) I loved tour guiding. I love the buzz of chatting and informing people, the idea that they will ask me questions and I can tell them about Dublin. I got a huge cheshire grin on my face every time I did a tour and I still do them once a year for new postgraduate students. The performance, but more than anything, telling people about all the fascinating things about Dublin, all the little stories, all the best places to eat, to shop and all the medieval history…its great!!
3) I am passionate about learning modern greek. I am going to Greece to learn it at a language school after 3 years of struggling to teach myself. I dream of setting up an import company that brings in greek produce and I sell it and help to raise knowledge of greek food and source it from small organic farmers or small cottage industries.
4) I have had an interview with a recruitment agency with the possibility of being hired as a junior recruitement consultant. Its a sales job and I know I could get people placed and find new companies who would value our service. However, its a sales job and as my boyfriend says, I am too nice a person to be doing such a job. But, its structured, its a small company, targets give me parameters, but I still have the discretion to reach that target however I like in terms of relationship building and such.
HELP!! I have so many things I dont know where to start. I am so itching to leave this place, but I cant until I have come back from Greece feasibly, since no commerical place would take me if I already have 3 weeks booked holidays when they may want to do training with me. Also, I want to move out so badly. I dont want to move in with my boyf yet, its too soon, so I guess that is something I will have to compromise on and stay at home for a little while longer, at least till next year when I have finished saving, or when I am paid more. Any ideas….I need help to martial things and really have a plan of what to do next!
