Find balance.

This is like some extreme not-caring, self-depreciating, tired phases. I’m sick of it; just want to sleep through, but can’t. Damn.

Yeah, balance could possibly be nice, but would I then loose the melodramatics and extremes that make the best fuel for all my creative endeavors? Hm… Ya, know because I’m balanced enough, I think I”ll just call that could for now, and try to find more balance when stability is more important in my life.

This one isn’t going so well. I’m either like a wreck of anxiety, which is happening less :], or being a lot more apathetic, though with a hint of bitchy-ness.
My not reliable ex-psychologist once said that I might be depressed when I was in one of the more apathetic, nothing matters kind of phases. And the other extreme is panic attacks.
I guess I have balance sometimes, like when I’m hanging out with friends, and it’s fun and chill, that’s always nice.