learn to love without constraints

In my LONG LONG hiatus from this site i grew up got my degree, got married and had a child. Being a mother is loving without constraints. Wholly all that i am loves my little angel.

i think i have done this one finally.
This epiphany came in the form of a dance.
it is hard for me to dance in front of people. especially when i am with Zeke. however i did it.
i am proud,
and i am free.
all because i danced.

IN ORDER TO BE LIMITLESS IN MY LOVE I FOUND THAT I MUST REACH ANOTHER LEVEL OF COMFORT. IT IS A LEVEL AT WHICH ONE CAN HAVE GAS, GIVE UP SECRETS AND TRUST. I AM ALMOST THERE. I AM RELUCTANT ON THE GAS PART, MU COUNTERPART IS NOT THOUGH. TOO BAD FOR ME :(

i am finding the more that i am shown unconditional and unfailing love, the easier it is for me to love freely and openly. With every day that i live loved, is another for which i am thankful. My heart has grown. My life has gained meaning. my soul has gained something it lost long long ago. and soon enough the remains of that scar will be covered and forgotten.

this may be a hard one, for i am realizing that i do not even love myself without constraints of some sort.