as maturity comes over me and alters my way of thinking i am begining to realize that there are a couple of people whom i can truly comsider to be best friends to me. but not in the same way. the first is my mom. and the secomd is my boyfriend. they truly bring out the best in me. and i hope that i am as much a blessing to them as they are to me.
EVER SINCE I WAS IN MY PRETEEN YEARS UP UNTIL THE AGE OF FIFTEEN I WENT THROUGH TOURMENT MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY. THE PHYSICAL TOURMENT WAS PURELY SELF INFFLICTED. I NOW REALIZE THIS PAIN THAT I WAS EXERIENCING INTERNALLY TO BE THE REASON I COULD NOT FUNCTION EXTERNALLY ENOUGH TO HAVE FRIENDS.
NOW THAT I AM OUT OF THAT STATE I CAN RECOGNIZE THIS AS BEING THE ROOT OF MY FRIENDLESSNESS. I CAN FIND ANOTHER REASON TO BE THANKFULL.
I NOW HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHO PLANS ON BEING MY HUSBAND. HE IS ALSO SOMETHING FOR WHICH I CAN FIND THANKS. HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME, AND WILL HAVE EVERLASTING LOVE FOR THIS MAN.
