This is hugely important for me. I’ve always been someone who moves to the beat of their own drummer, and a large part of that is that I’ve never really ‘grown up’. Maintaining a sense of childlike wonder and awe has always seemed like an important part of combating the potential of growing disillusioned and losing a lust and love for life.
Go figure the mundane aspects of day to day life, work, worry, stress – have all been slowly eroding away at this and the last few months I’ve found myself feeling very down. I work 7 days a week with maybe 1-2 days off a month (usually when I’m sick or if something Very Important comes up and I request a day off) and the constant string of work and little play has been turning me into a Grumpy Thing.
I don’t like that. I don’t like that the blues seem less blue and the yellows less yellow. I don’t like that the flowers aren’t as pretty as they would have been a year ago and I don’t get excited by the sunrise. I don’t like feeling like I’m stuck in a bubble and all the wonders of life are somehow far away and I’ve lost the path to go enjoy them.
Something I need to work on. Very much.