I’m drawing again. I’m using watercolor and acrylics. Just a typical anime drawing but I felt soooo happy when I was doing it. Even if its just half finished I already feel as if I have done a great improvement on myself.
I haven’t drawin anything in two years. Being in the College of Fine Arts, ironically, destroyed my love for drawing. I didn’t like being forced to draw things that I didn’t like to draw. I’m stubborn, thus the result was that I stopped drawing anything. When I tried drawing after a year I was so devastated and frustrated because the quality of my drawings. I wasn’t as good as I was before due to the fact that I lack practice. Thus I avoided drawing anything. I guess it was the fear of not being good enough. I’m my own enemy in a way. I criticize myself too much.
Last week I found an unfinished drawing that I did. For the first time after two years I finally picked up the courage to draw and paint again. I threw away all my inhibitions, my fears and my self-criticisms. I told myself to enjoy what I’m doing and JUST DO IT! I’m definitely happier now. I guess people are happier when they get in touch with what they trully love. I love drawing thus I felt alive again. I want to finish this as soon as possible.
