develop my business to the point where I can start taking a salary

and I am of course dissappointed since I really wanted to do this one. But it also makes clear to me that I am really dependent on other organisers of trainings and their mysterious ways of selection. I really need to take my faith into my own hands and develop my own concepts and trainings! I know I can do it! I have the talent, the enthusiasm and this is my thing to do! So why am I still holding back? Being scared of my own success is not a good basis for being succesful! So I need to get a grip here!

so fingers crossed I will get in! I will light a special candle for my guardian angel (I am still old fashioned, I addmit) and am really grateful already for be able to do it! I would be in the team with one of my dear friends I haven’t seen for almost a year so if that is not a good reason to pick me, I don’t know what is (except for being my fabulous self of course ;-) ) !
Will post the decision the minute I find out! Some additional crossing your fingers would be grately appreciated… :-D