cure my insomnia

I can’t fall asleep until around six in the morning again, and it’s been this bad for about a month… Because i don’t have to wake up early im constantly sleeping in and i have almost become nocturnal. Ecery doctor i go to say its caused by stress and anxiety but i really have no idea what is im stressed out about…. ?hmmmmmmm

So right now its around 5:45 a.m. I’ve had time to finish a t.v series, get half way through another, have a shower and think… just think in the silence, well it’s not so silent now i can hear birds, the suns not even out. They sure are some ‘Early birds’ haha. Cheap pun i know… but i figured being alone in the early morning in a quiet house with no-one to talk to sucks, especially because you are all alone with your thoughts, and all the mistakes you’ve made, all youre regrets, fears for the future, search for meaning… it all catches up with you because after a while you stop trying to go to sleep and there’s just nothing else…. I really just need sleep.

Well it has been going on for around 5 years now… last year when i was with my boyfriend i slept like a baby and now we’re over my insomnia is back. It’s not so fun watching the sun rise through your curtains or hearing you’re alarm go off to wake up in the morning. Also i find it so hard to concentrate in school because of it.