see my mom

My parents got divorced four years ago and since then I haven’t seen my mom. This is only because my older brother was mad at her because she cheated on my dad. So, I became a follower. My dad always tells me how bad she is, like he doesn’t want me to see her. He told me she said she only married him so he could financially support her, and to have a son (my older brother) because she lost her other son through a previous divorce. I know I want to have a relationship with her when I am older, but I miss her so much right now. I don’t even know where she lives. My dad also hates her because she does drugs and stuff. My older brother feels my mom left us alone with no protection from my dad, who can be crazy sometimes, so my brother does drugs too. he threw his life away and he blames my mom. But I still want to see her, see what she’s doing…