I am so used to being dutiful and respecting my family’s opinions about things that I usually don’t voice my differences. When I have differences, I keep them to myself and subsume my difference in order to avoid confrontation. I loathe confrontation—and I never want to seem disrepectful. But, I do sometimes have real differences. And whether or not I can articulate them, which brings up another matter, I should respect my opinions first.
When I do mention that I have a different opinion, usually I am railroaded into saying yes, they are right. How stupid of me. But this makes me feel like a hypocrite, like a child. I should make a decision, stick to my guns, and be able to defend it, while maintaining respect and civility and dialogue. But I am weak.
