Things that make me happy...

at the park today with my nephew, another kid that we just met named Noah and his 2 yr old sister Hannah and my daughters. We had just finished riding bikes and the older boys decided to play a game of basketball. She was sitting there patiently watching her dad play for quite a while- especially for someone her age. She finally got bored and started crying. So I told her dad that we were going to play on the playground and asked if she could go too. He said he didn’t think she would. I held out my hand and told her that we were going to go play and asked if she wanted to go. She grabbed my hand and off we were. Later I asked F if her dad was surprised that she went with me and he said, “Yes, he was shocked that she went”. Of course that made me feel good that she immediately felt safe with me, that or she was just desperate to do something else…lol. Either way I was happy. I had so much fun playing with them all, oh, and also this other little girl showed up too, while her mom waited in the car. I haven’t played like that in so long. I miss being around little kids so much – My heart is still beaming :)

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with my girls and nephew. We went to my mom’s house, aka Grammy’s.
Took her a nice variety of flowers to plant at her house. She was so happy that we were all there that she got a bit teary-eyed when we all walked in. She’s been through so much lately and has been very down dealing with my sister, so I know seeing my nephew was something that she really needed today. Being away from him so much lately, when she has been his primary caregiver for so long now…

The kids, my mom and step-dad all got out there together found a great spot at the front of the house. I pulled a bench from the side of the house that they weren’t using and added it to our decor. It all turned out quite pretty, and most importantly “got her out of her funk”, which is what my step-dad said, so that made my Mother’s Day extra special.

I’ll have to take him to stay with her on her next weekend off. I know she needs more than a couple of hours with him. I was just happy that her mood was lifted and she genuinely seemed happy when it was time for us to leave. :)

I went to pick up some t-shirts that were made for our co. this morning. I noticed this awesome motorcycle out front, walked in and asked the guy helping me who’s bike that is. He said it was his. We talked for awhile and had a funny back and forth banter going on. He asked if I had ever ridden on the back before…lol.. I smiled and showed him my war motorcycle burns on my right leg. I explained that was from my younger days. He said if I ever wanted to go riding to let him know…hmmm?
Pretty soon when everything calms down I will follow my heart, get my own place and be free again. I just might be getting in touch with him when I get there.

The last couple of days have been incredibly draining. We all came to the agreement that my nephew should be here with me, despite what my sister wanted. Yesterday I met our family friend to pick him up, and he and I spent the day together getting him situated. We went and got him some new undies ;), socks and jeans, and a closet organizer. When I got him I had a car load of stuff. We went through everything, including his clothes that he said he doesn’t wear half of-or they didn’t fit. I told him we would take them to one of the local thrift shops and sell them, and the money he makes will be his.
He, like any kid- loved that idea:)

I spoke to his teacher and she agreed that he should take the day off and she was not concerned about him making up his work. She told us to enjoy the day, maybe get some ice cream. I told my nephew that part of his homework was to get some ice cream. He thought that was funny and I at least got a grin out of him… so we headed to Baskin Robbins. Before walking in I told him he should feel very loved because I normally don’t step foot in that place. (The smell of sweets makes me want to hurl…lol)

I met his teacher this morning and she said she will make sure and “give him extra love”. I’m so thankful for her and her help with everything.
It actually took a couple of hours before he started acting like himself again after getting him. He seems happy now and even my sister finally came to her senses and was ok with him being with me. She knows deep in her heart that he is better off here with his family.

I’m going to take him this weekend to visit his sister and my mom. He and my mom are super close. She’s been helping take care of him in the same house since he was a baby. I’m so lucky to have her, and so is he.

I made a promise to my nephew one day that I would make sure that everything would be ok. I’m going to do my best to keep that promise.

has finally gone to a 30 day treatment center. It’s been very draining
for everyone around her just getting her there. After our argument, she went to a relatives house and ended up fighting with her the next morning. After that she headed to Dallas to a long time family friends house. At that point we all decided it was time to do whatever we had to. I found out a lot more that I didn’t know after she left, and am very scared that she might not ever be the same- even after treatment. ..still hoping for the best, and am just really thankful that the kids are safe and in good hands.

I love my new 55 gallon fish aquarium…and best of all it was free –
Everything included, plus the 15 fish :)
I love lying in bed and watching them. Everyone in the house, except Bubbles has named one. Let me see if I can remember…we have Splash, Leopard, Sunshine, Ricky, Sponge and mine is Neptune, he’s the big blue one.
I can’t wait to add different rocks, backdrop and colored light. I need to figure out how to cover up those pumps…maybe I can wrap some sort of greenery around them…

I had a problem at the intermediate school with parents not following rules, causing a huge morning traffic jam at the school. I called yesterday and the first thing the lady in the office said was, “Yeah, we get a lot of calls about this”. I wanted to say “then it’s obviously an issue that needs to be addressed”- but I didn’t. I asked to speak to the principal. I immediately told him that I was not calling just to complain, I was calling with solutions.
He explained to me that there has already been a wreck there this year…great!
I told him the things that they could do and one of them being simply standing out there, as well as having an officer monitor the street because another problem that I spoke with him about was the lack of a crosswalk and how drivers simply do not let kids cross, not only that but they are driving entirely too fast in a school zone….argh!...People’s ignorance truly amazes me sometimes.
He was super sweet and said he would personally go out there and monitor traffic :)...so driving into the school this morning and seeing him and not dealing with that 10 minute wait, just to exit the school put the biggest smile on my face. Finally, finally somebody around here tried to make a difference.

I dealt with trying to make changes at the middle school when my daughters were there because of the poor security at the school. They started to make changes and promised to enforce even more. That is one thing that I really want to accomplish. They have already had scares, even after I started giving them grief, so there should be no question about following through all the things that I initially suggested to them at that time. All schools should be secured enough that parents don’t have to worry about dropping their kids off. It’s as simple as installing cameras, putting in a buzzer door, keeping all doors locked and having visitors sign in and out- showing identification at all times…

::Ooops, I got carried away I’m supposed to be at work right now, like 20 minutes ago…lol::

So all because the principal made an effort to monitor traffic this morning, it had such a rippling effect, and I’m even happier because he gave me back my desire to make changes that seriously need addressing – I’m suddenly feeling rejuvenated!

I haven’t been able to post as much as I’ve been wanting to lately, so I’m catching up a bit here…

- Getting super cheered by Simon.
- I got a raise at work yesterday, which wasn’t supposed to happen until around the end of June. I’ve been coming in and leaving as I please lately out of irritation and frustration, so it really came to me by utter surprise.
- Being home alone today with the ability to daydream and let my mind run free.
- warm weather with a nice breeze. I just wish I could send some of this sunshine to insanitypending.
- My daughters have been volunteering. :)
- An email from a friend the other day that showed so much appreciation and kindness, thanks A.
- That my #1 person is getting to the point of frustration and wanting to make things better.

about a love interest, again not my soul mate dreams that I have had before, but enough of a connection that in my dream I was really excited because I found out that he was a teacher like me, and cut hair on the side…lol…neither of which I do.
I think it just related to him helping others and being somewhat creative, plus I’ve been thinking about getting my hair cut lately so, you know how dreams get all weird and intertwined, because I have no desire to cut hair. I have taught myself and cut everyone in the house’s hair, including my own, but nope, would not want to stand over people hair all day.
Anyway,that’s not what this entry was supposed to be about…where was I…oh, my guy in my dream. I also had another dream…hmmm…I don’t think it was the same dream, but was right before or after, not sure, but anyway, the guy and I were riding on a horse, I was riding bitch, of course…lol
There really wasn’t much to it I just remember him pulling me around, somehow and kissing me while we were on the horse. It was a yummy big kiss too…funny thing about that is I haven’t had a kiss in close to a year…by choice, of course :)
So guess that came out in my dream. I didn’t miss my guy either when I woke up; which happens to a point, that makes me sad in those other dreams…hmmm? I wonder why I haven’t had those soul mate dreams in awhile now. I miss my soul mate guy. Maybe my brain gets too sad and is self protecting…well, that’s just annoying because I like having those dreams, even if I do miss my guy for a long time afterwards. It still leaves me with an indescribable feeling of love and warmth. Alright enough about this. I need to walk around for a bit right now. My back is killing me. I bet the guy in my soul mate dream would be happy to rub my back right now…He’s such a sweetheart!