be present in the moment

I have mastered the art of not focusing on the past and allowing that to hinder me. BUT, I have not learned how to keep the future in perspective. I am a goal oriented person and I tend to freak out about where Im going to be in five years and how IM going to get there and the like… so, here’s to focusing on this moment and doing the best in this day so that tomorrow will not be such a worry. Its about baby steps. And I tend to try and take leaps and bounds!

I think Im going to buy Eckhart Tolle’s book today:)

requires you to face some uncomfortable feelings. Today is one of those days. LOW,LOW,LOW…. that is how i feel. I need to just be in my bed…away from the world. Thankfully, I am at work with just a sweet little two year old cleaning away at the house and downloading itunes. Things could most definatley be worse in that dept. Regardless, I still have these aching feelings inside of me. I have spent the last 5 plus years taking care of people and neglecting myself. Slowly I am learning to love and respect myself as well but its still a process. So being in the moment right now is staring at the blinding fact that I’m very afraid…very very afraid. Uncertainty is not my friend but I need to learn to deal with it.

my boyfriend is the most ‘in the moment’ person ive ever met. if he did not have a computer with a organizer on it to remind him to “do” his life, he would get lost in every moment of every day. we moved in together six months ago and it has been an education and a half because i think we truly are polar opposites. but now to the funny part…he’s taught me so much.

i heard from this guy who had a master’s in psychology and nuerology (i say this only to give him a little credit and hoping that he didn’t just pull it out of his butt) that peoples brains are literally wired to be, as he phrased it, “in time”, in the present or “through time” looking at the past and future. people who are “in time” (obviously these are generalizations), tend to be compulsive, passionate, slightly forgetful and unorganized but enjoying every minute of it while those who are “through time” are overly organized, too worried about the “schedule” to enjoy the moments, get to the end of their life and wonder “where are all of my memories?” and have a catalog of every mistake they have ever made. unfortunately, i tend to the “through time” side of the spectrum…hey my bills get paid on time but do i ever really have fun?

has anyone ever heard of such a thing? does this mean i’m stuck like this forever? (being facetious;))honestly though?