leave a gentle imprint

I have been reading a very good book. It helps me to have hope and release the anger. I walk more softly now. Every day it gets easier (with minor setbacks, of course). After all, I’m only human.

A lady I work with stopped me in the hall and said, “I’ve been meaning to tell you that you are a beautiful person – inside and out. I just felt that I needed to tell you that.” Then she ran off on her busy day, leaving me sheepishly whispering thanks. Everyday (especially lately) I draw strength from what she said. I spend all day helping/giving to others. It was so kind of her to stop and say that. It only took about 5 seconds of her time, but it will be priceless to me for the rest of my life. Thanks Delia. You’re pretty beautiful too.

This is getting easier. I am not so full of anger anymore. It required entirely too much energy. I am still working on divorce stuff. The finality of it all doesn’t make it any easier, but I have come to accept that everyday, I am coming one day closer to God’s plan for me. Less crying, more smiling. If you left a comment, thanks. It meant alot.

I’ve been going through a divorce and this has not been as easy as it would naturally be for me. I am so angry that I find it hard to think sometimes. I wish that my ex would fall of the edge of the planet, but that wouldn’t exactly go with my philosophy of a gentle imprint. I find myself thinking that he should make a not so gentle imprint on the ground from a 20 story building. I guess I have some work to do on this “thing”. I just can’t wait for all this to be over, so I can get on with my life.

Anomynity is a difficult concept.
I am not sure that I like it, but I do believe in it.
Sometimes it is the only way.
Release … and enjoy.

Leaving a gentle imprint means:
The world won’t remember me, but those I love will.
I will give more than I take.
I am ordinary. I am special.
I will not waste.
I will surrender to the sanctity of life (and of living).