Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...

I think I made a small step toward peace today. An ex-friend of mine (long story) betrayed me over a year ago. She did not see it that way, and we parted. We used to work together and I was leaving..not knowing that I would also be leaving a friend behind. I did not wish it to be that way, but was so hurt and betrayed. Today, I went back to my old workplace to visit and we actually started talking..and joking…and she apologized. She never truly understood why I was angry in the first place, but her apology was heartfelt..and I accepted and thanked her. I realized that she may never understand why I was angry and I could explain it to her until I was blue in the face..but maybe that was not really the issue anymore. Maybe her apologizing could be enough.And from that moment..I felt..lighter. Like a burden had been lifted. I carry way too much emotional baggage from my past, and it felt pretty amazing to let it go. We exchanged emails and parted. I don’t know if we actually will follow through but I felt as though I had been given a gift today.And maybe all along, we miss opportunities that are not exactly in our favor, and are not exactly “good”, but “good enough”;not exactly how we like it or envisioned, but enough that we can accept and make peace and move on.

This is a tall order. Who the heck ordered this one? Oh yeah. Me ;)