I have never been enough responsible in my Life…I have not shown any sense of responsibility in anything that I have done so far…
I have been an
1) Irresponsible student
2) Irresponsible engineer
3) Irresponsible person
May be I was a responsible son…probably :)...
Being responsible to myself is my first priority…
These are the associated To Dos
1. Wake Up early (Even on week-ends…before 9:30 AM)
2. Sleep Early (Before 12 mid night)
3. Have a healthy break fast.
4. Be responsive to my ideologies ( I have been deviating ..I never gave enough considerations before taking decisions-which actually means I have been ignoring my own thoughts on those matters)
5. Kill My Ego…When I say “kill my ego” ,I just mean to keep it within a reasonable level so that I can maintain relationships comfortably…Just to cite the most recent catastrophe due to my ‘superego’ – I lost an amazing company…a friend…In the sense I lost contact with her for at least a year…
This is what happended:
I met a friend after 3 years….We spent sometime together talking about small small things-chit-chats. I enjoyed her company more than she enjoyed mine (this is how I feel,and most probably it should be true). While it was time for me to say adieu,she asked me to keep in touch at least through phone. I said fine I will call you,I wasn’t serious I didn’t have her number…She laughed and said “you are lying you don’t even have my number and you offer to call me”...I pretended not to have heard her question..I just said …”see you sometime later ..somewhere..till then adios!!”
I don’t know why I didn’t ask her number...
I am sure it’s my ego…:((
6. Avoid mood swings…I mean occasional desperation.Why else should I be writing all these craps at 02:33 am ?
7. Be proactive …One of my ideal is to “live freely and let others live freely”... I don’t believe in guiding others/giving advices etc…We are all equals on this earth…I will try to make others better informed but will never impose any guidance or advice upon them.
Problem with this is that,while I abstain from making decisions for others they don’t usually reciprocate the same courtesy. I end up in the receiving end… I want to change this age old practice as well…
More details to follow..Going to sleep now…
