Lose 20 pounds

I started back in April of 07, initially lost about 16 lbs, and am now back up about 4 lbs from there. Yuck. I really want to lose these last 8-ish lbs so bad but I am just so lazy. I love food and cant seem to work out like I used to. I wish i never got off the wagon :(

Okay…So here it is in a nutshell. I started dieting and going to the gym 3x a week in April with a start weight of 138 and by September I was down to 122, and I was like yes wow 16 lbs great and I had some stuff going on like a vacation so I decided to take a break from the diet and for the most part the exercise too and planned to start up again Oct 1st. Well the 1st rolled around and I found myself only 1/2 way back on the wagon, cheating on the diet and only going to the gym once a week or so. Mid Nov I came down to my car to go to the gym and found I had no window, someone had broken into my car so obviously I couldnt go that day, and subsiquently, I didnt go for 2 whole months after that, I just had absolutely NO motivation to. I went one time last month and still have pretty much no motivation. So hopefully getting back on here (I used to always come on here during work but got in trouble for non work stuff) will help me get motivated again. So I am back up to 125ish. Thats not bad, gaining only about 3 lbs back, but I would still really like to get to my goal of 118. So at this point I have about 7 lbs to go. And it sux cause I think ive lost a lot of my nice muscle I gained from working out :( So hopefully Im back!!!

Well…have not been eating good, have not gone to the gym in a few weeks. I really wanted to go today but my excuse is women trubbles :) Haha, I just really want to take a hot bath and read a book when I get off work. Goal: get to gym by Monday evening. I can’t let this all go to crap when I worked so hard before.

So again I went back up about 3 lbs in the 125 range. Yesterday, my boyfriend and I bought a whole body cleanse kit to detox our bodies. You are ofcourse supposed to eat good w/ it, avoid dairy and wheat products. I am going to try my darndest to eat good for the next 2 weeks. My weakness is chocolate/ sweets. Hopefully this detox will jumpstart me back on to a reasonable diet…still going for my goal of 118, currently around 124-125, lowest was 122.

I am not fully sticking to things (I have had ice cream 3 days in a row now) but I am still trying to have healthy meals, but with a not so healthy desert. Went to the gym Tuesday and I am going (hopefully…Im so tired) today and Saturday. Yesterday I somehow miraculously weighed 122.8! It has really been fluctuating between that and 126. Egh. I just want these last 5 lbs off so bad!

Well I started up again on Monday and weighed 123.8, I have worked out twice since then and followed the point system, and I am now up at 124.4. GRR. I hate being so close, yet so far away from my goal. If Im not down to 123 by next week I am going to have to ramp things up. I really want to be at 118 by Dec 31st, to have met the goal by New Years!

Oct 1st has come. I am getting back on the wagon. Morning weight of 123.8 which means I have 5.8 lbs to go for my goal of 20 lbs lost, at 118. I took most of Sept off but I am ready, I hope, to start working out and eating better again. I REALLY want this, I just need to be more motivated to go to the gym. I can do it!

I know it sounds bad, but I really have lost my focus, due to the vacation and everything (the fair, anniversary coming up). Its just not feasible for me to stick to my diet right now. I think what would be best is if I took the rest of the month off to give myself a “break” and re-charge my batteries that would be good. I made it this far, I know I can get the last few lbs (would have been only 4 to go but now its 5-6). I will still go to the gym when I can, likely only 2-4x in the next two weeks, but it works. October 1st is a Monday which is perfect…so until then, I hope I don’t gain anymore weight back and good luck to everyone!

Back from vacay and as afore mentioned, I did not stick to any sort of a diet in Reno. I ate a lot. AND last night I had a late dinner. So I did not weigh myself this morning. I am too scared! I will post an update tomorrow hopefully and commence my diet from here on out.

Leaving to Reno in about 5 or 6 hours. I ate out last night w/ my bf to spend sometime/say goodbye. I already know I will be having a buffet once there. I really REALLY hope I dont come back weighing more than 125. I have worked so hard to get to this point. My lowest was 122.2 but now Im back up in the 123-124 range. DAMN. Goal still is 118, which I will resume in full swing when I get back. I can do this. Wish me luck on the slots!