manage my anger

I’m now keeping an anger journal…next therapy session is this Friday morning.

Today, I had a small test in my anger management.

I needed to interview a source for a story early this morning (because I’m a journalist and it was my silly idea to schedule this interview early Sunday morning). I brought home the number so I could call the source for the story but today, I misplaced the number.

The deep breaths really helped, calmed me down and made me realize that I had the phone number back in the office. The key is to breathe from your ribs, since that calms you down. Breathing from your chest only increases endorphins and stress. This came from my first counseling session.

So, I walked to the office (since it is two blocks away), got the phone number, and found out from her husband that she was walking her dogs! OMG, LOL. Well, I got some other things done in terms of organization for my next few assignments.

I’m looking forward to my next therapy session…

I have called the Oshkosh Counseling Center to discuss anger management, especially at the work place. Something happened that made me upset and I almost threw a slight fit at the office. Fortunately, no one was there to see it but I am sure someone heard it. I like my job and my key weakness is being much more professional about it. Therefore, I’m going to go to therapy.

Well, so far, I haven’t found anything to be really angry at. However, I do think I still need to see a counselor and hope to sign up for that soon.

I have needed to do this for a long time.

Last week, I broke my cell phone, my brand new cell phone that I put $250 down on, right after I saw my ex-boyfriend with his new man at Rainbow Over Wisconsin. That, and I lost my bluetooth headset. I started to blame my friends and get mad at them. That made me realize that it was my bad temper that ruined my relationship with James in the first place, of all things.

I know this is going to be hard to do but I think it is worth it. I don’t want to be angry anymore and break my expensive cell phones. I want to be as mature as I feel and be ready for my next relationship.

I don’t know how to go forward with this, but I heard that I should take an anger management. I’m going to look into taking a class at the local university or community college.