stop drinking

Wow – some great posts. When you drink – you know the end results. There are days when i wonder, your killing yourself – your 40+...i think I have taken less than 4 days in the past 5 years off, my dad would not be proud

To be honest, it hurts everyone in my family…

everyday i wish ..i pray..for all of us to have health, reason, skills to deal with our family and life

AN example of my day..

i cannot….do this today

were not going to like how we feel in the morning.

for me its right about three in the afternoon. my body conditioned to drink. how sick.

then i detox – and love it both ways. the feeling of NO booze is a high in an of itself.

I wish the best for all of us

for now i am on the sicker side of hell or death. after 27 years if stupidity one would think….

for my kids – i hope and pray tomorrow is brighter…once more

i pray for all of us – to do what we can do – today i will not drink…..

Tomorrow I will start over. I looked at myself today – I look like death. Red in the face, eyes yellow, bags under the eyes. Body hurts everywhere.

It is a shame, to have achieved and fallen again. Over and over. My body is too old for this shit. I feel like I am 80.
I pray for all of us and hope we can all reach our dreams. I hope I can see my children get married. they are 5 and 8

The way life is kicking me…i wish it was easy. Its not I am back to drinking. I had hoped I would have been stronger. My kids know it, I know it, my boss knows it.

Everything is spiraling backwards. FU** me…

I hope and wish everyone else good luck and good times

That is the option.

We cannot change the past only the moment in front of us. Good for all of you who are standing and great for everyone trying to stand. Life is better sober, we all have to grow up sometime.

Today I feel so much different about alcohol – I still crave it, sometimes I even have some (that wasnt my goal) – but I realize it is not my life, cannot be my life and I make better choices about it.

Life is what we make it – I am going to make mine – one i can remember, one I am not going to lie about, one I am going to give thanks for, one I am going to celebrate and set an example for my children to live by.

I hope we all make choices we can live with – do the best you can – with what you have – to all of you I wish the best. It is nice to see all of you here posting and supporting….life.

today I will not drink…

Baseball has kept me busy for the last two weeks, I have been strong and realize how much better I am without Alcohol. Thank you for your support and I do think there are baby steps to success.

I was listening to this guy talk about baggage – and I realize how much we pick up when we allow ourselves to get involved in things we should not.

Happy Fathers Day to all the fathers – and best of luck to all of us still trying…

one day at a time.

i love my kids -

Trying over again. Started one day, turned into three weeks. On day three, I enjoyed the first controlled week, only to find myself – out of control – and soon hiding it, finding excuses to leave the house.

To all keep going – to my family – I am sorry – to myself I deserve better.

faith and hope to everyone, again I say one is too many and a bottle is never enough. I do feel better sober – Today I will not drink.

I pray … we never have to live a DUI – again. To see our families spill their hearts…to know what we lived in 24 hours cost us XXXXX and then some…

Russ – I have been there – it is not an easy road to live – to know yourself – to understand best case is three weeks – which is three weeks too long. Maybe 45 days – my lord help us all -

I pray for all of our souls…we never know how bad it can be – until it us – we are so used to kiling ourselves – we dont even know it anymore -

getting in trouble, getting divorced, losing a job, losing ourselves, dying…

and wondering why – we just could say no….to what appears to be so simple….

I pray for all of us…

and for those doing well – I am hopefull….

We bury another friend…

we took a boat out and dropped the ashes into the water – what a prism the ashes made with the sun shining on them.

Death puts (i hope) everything back in perspective. Your life, your families life, the kids.

For me, not drinking has been an exception in my life, but i do know it is the way FOR life. I try harder not to lose control, to keep the world in perspective.

I hope you all make choices that are healthy. I constantly worry about the kids, (as our parents did).

Keep posting – Keep it real and alive – it is ok to fail on the way to success. Not perfect here in any sense = I am human.

Thank you for listening…..

The slowest burn…...Paul

Your correct….

I have resigned on some levels. Thanks for lighting the torch again, this is my only forum. I cannot reach out to the world. I have found the fire again. I will not drink today.

A work in progress – is better than no work at all. WIP. Let me never get ahead of myself.

If we can change a moment – make an impact someplace – we win. Thanks for taking some time. I hope your all well. I wish I could be a better person.

asb