be more romantic

I don’t know if I should change the goal or just consider this a part of the overall goal. I want to make sure that my wife always knows that I love her.

We had a traumatic experience yesterday and watched a man die. Driving back from the mountains a motorcycle crossed the center of the road and went head on into a car in front of us. My wife actually saw him cross the line whereas I missed that but saw the collision and the body as it flew through the air and stopped in front of us.

It really illustrated how fickle life can be. An amazingly beautiful day suddenly turned tragic and horrible and one man lost his life. I realize that either one of us could be the victim of an unexpected accident. If it’s me I want my wife to know how much I loved her. If it’s her I want her to be able to know how much she is loved in her last moments. Hopefully neither of us will ever have such an accident, but we’ll live with the knowledge of how much we are loved. I know I feel very loved and want to make sure my wife always feels the same way.

When I went out to the drug store I picked up a blank “Thinking of you…” card and wrote how I feel about her inside the card. I also bought her two Christmas Nerds Ropes (one of her favorite candies) to go with the card.

She was delighted.

I was much better romantically both earlier in this relationship and earlier in my life. I used to make cards, write poems and give gifts or flowers to romantically show my love. I also know that one of the main reasons I got less romantic with my wife was due to relationship tensions.

Although we’ve moved past a lot of those tensions, I haven’t recaptured my romantic side. I love my wife very much and want her to feel special. I am going to start spending more time thinking about how special I think she is and gain motivation for being romantic with those thoughts. She deserves a romantic existance and I plan on giving it to her.