My acupuncturist was telling me that she believes my feelings of being stuck in a rut are a safety mechanism against all the change and transition I’m constantly in.
That when you’re feeling pushed and pulled and constantly in motion that the opposite of that is stopped motion, stagnation, a rut. And that if it’s a safety mechanism, I have to find other ways to find that safety and grounding.
It was fascinating to think about in that way, and I believe that my inbalance of chi is righting itself, because I’m trying not to fight the change anymore. I want to sway like the willow tree. I want to let energy flow freely into me and out of me. I don’t want to be a vessel for stagnation anymore. The unknowns are there, but I don’t have to fear them. I just have to move with them.
with my old acupuncturist!! I’m not feeling nearly as bad, but the experience will be good for general wellness. I’m sure my chi still needs balancing on some level. I remember that last time it really helped me gain mental clarity. And probably the thing I’m most excited about is it will be great to reconnect with an old friend.
The stress of my work situation is increasing, and my insides are feeling the turmoil. Last time this happened Western medicine diagnosed IBS, and Eastern medicine diagnosed an inbalance in spleen chi. I haven’t seen an acupuncturist since then, and a lot of this new stress stems from not being able to speak up for myself, or when I do, there are no results/changes. So, I’m at a loss for what to do. Quitting makes the most sense, but I just care about my job so much. Any way to bring my boss back to reality? Any way to deal with her crazy antics? Any way to stop my intestines from playing double dutch? Anyway to do what I love but not with my boss?? Any way to get my boss to truly listen to me?
I thought I was through this…