have a better relationship with my dad

I’m kind of tempted to expand this goal to have a better relationship with my parents, but I’m not sure. My relationship with my mom is very good actually, except the occasional fight, but know one can avoid that. Me and my stepdad don’t have a very good relationship though. For the first couple of years that he married my mom, instead of acknowlaging it or even getting mad about it, I just saw Ray as some guy who happened to live with us. After about two years of that, I got angry at him for no reason. He was kind about it, still playing the part for an unruly eight year old. But now it’s more of a brother sister thing, and I kind of like it. I’ve kind of gone back to the random guy living in our house thing, but I hope we can get past that.

I’m going over to his house tonight and tomorrow. I’m sort of nervous about it, because I really want to get along and not loose my temper. I hope I can remember to stay up beat, because if I’m not, of not talkative, he immediately thinks I’m mad at him. Smile of permanince, here I come.

I feel horrible, because I haven’t talked to him in a week. But it feels like whenever I call him, it’s the same awkward, strained conversation over and over. The whole, how are you? good. You? I’m fine. silence. It’s almost painful. But I know he’ll still apreciate it if I call, so I’ll add that to my day’s list. I do love my dad, but sometimes it feels like we’re strangers who know each other very well.

Me and my dad. I can’t explain our relationship because no one but uss gets it. Part time single dad. I love him a lot, and we have a lot of laughs, but a lot of yelling too. His heart keeps getting worse, and I don’t want to regret anything no matter how much time we have left. I’ve decided to try and talk with him once every other day. Sometimes we don’t talk for weeks, and it hurts because after a fight, we’re both relentless, angry, and stubborn. In our family, we know how to keep a grudge. But I guess after his latest trip to the hospital, I’ve decided I can’t let my pride get in the way.