grow out my relaxer and have natural hair

I feel like I’m one of the few Caucasians in this situation, so it gets pretty frustrating sometimes. Styling it has been really difficult. But my last Chi straightening treatment was in early January, so I’ve been transitioning for seven months now! Go me! Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing the right thing, because I hated my hair so much before I started straightening it, but I think that now that I’m older I’ll know how to take better care of it and be proud of being different, instead of just wishing I looked like everyone else.