accept, maintain & embrace my naturally slim figure

To gain a stone by my birthday.

I have the weight training workouts down, I just need to concentrate on increasing my food portions.

I can do this!

I rarely set myself weight related goals because I find it so hard to gain and know Im setting myself up for disappointment. But this outlook also sets me up to fail and whether I reach it or not, any gain is ultimately a success. So Ive decided to attempt to gain and maintain a stone by my next birthday which is 9 months from now.

I know it seems a long amount of time but what you have to realise is that as hard as putting weight on for naturally slim people is, keeping it is sometimes harder. You have to eat 500 extra calories a day to see an increase of a pound a week, and increase this amount whenever you reach a plateau which means that once you put on the weight you have to maintain that level of food consumption. SOmething I find very hard to do.

But giving myself a decent amount of time to put it on means its less daunting… Sure Id like a quick fix, but Im not expecting to balloon to my desired size, I can take my time. I am not fixating on what I eat either, I find I go up quicker that way. Instead Im working on drinking more calorie rich drinks and doing weight resistance training. Ive done it before, I can do it again!

Strong is the new skinny! :)

I went hairdressers recently and had my hair blow-dried straight. I must admit it looks rather lovely, my aunt agreed… “All she needs to do now is gain half a stone.” Wow. Way to make me feel like sh*t.

Being slim sucks, and what Id say to anyone that wishes they could eat whatever they want and not gain weight is… be careful what you wish for. But when I gain that half a stone, what then? Am I going to be perfect? Who is perfect? What is it to you anyway?

Through the summer I was feeling pretty comfortable, wearing skinny jeans and fitted tops without (much) care. But now winter is approaching, Im feeling more self conscious. ‘I cant wear that chunky knit jumper, or my cosy winter coat, or those boots with skinny jeans because my legs will look stick thin.’

After a recent trip to the doctors it opened my eyes to the possibility that being this slim may not be so natural, no matter how hard it is for me to gain.

Im trying not to focus on it too much because that wont get me anywhere, it certainly wont help me put any on, but I am trying to bulk up and consciously eat more… I aim to gain and keep a stone within the year. Any advice please comment… and indeed wish me luck. :)

Recently, Ive started to feel more confident and comfortable in my body, regardless of where I am with me weight. Enough to wear super skinny jeans and buy a sheer maxi skirt… next goal, shorts! :O

I guess someone with insecurities concerning their body, inadvertently showed me that it is not worth being forever insecure about the way you are. If you can accept yourself, it shouldnt matter what anyone else says or thinks.

Being slim is as natural as my hair is curly. Why should I apologise about that? I dont have to answer to anyone, and as long as I accept my body the way it is… noone else should make it their concern.

If I ate everyday how I ate today… Id probably be the size I want to be.

Oh well, Merry Christmas! Im stuffed x

at least. Thats how much Im down from when I started this goal.

The couple pounds I lost over summer really shows… but gaining them back is proving harder then ever especially with uni being so busy.

This Christmas Im am stuffing my face at every given opportunity!

Then I can start the new year back on track to achieving this goal.

I tend to eat more when Im happy but Ive been getting a lot of comments concerning my weight recently and that tends to have the opposite effect.

I think I lost a couple pounds over the summer and what with uni being so massively time consuming its proving hard to put them back on… I wish there was a quick fix.

Well… with 1.5kg dumbbells.

I thought as muscle weighs more then fat its worth a try, even if all I do is define and tone… ;)

I had a discussion with one of my friends last week about my plans to gain weight and his response was to ask me if I had tried in the past and what the results were. So i told him … I have tried many times since I was a child to actively gain weight and although I do put on some it is normally only half a stone which is barely noticeable and then it levels off again, sometimes I manage to keep it on and other times I find I lose it all too easy afterwards.

He said if thats the case I should accept the fact that this is my body otherwise I will never be comfortable and it will show. He said I look fine the way I am and hes not the first to say I look fine the way I am … Im beginning to see I look fine the way I am. Even though Ive always been aware that I am naturally slim, Ive always felt the need to put some weight on, not really for my benefit but for others. My weight was a huge issue to those around me when I was growing up and so I think it has instilled in me that it is not acceptable to be as slim as I am.

But if I keep focusing on the fact I am slim then I will never be happy or confident with what I have … the things he said made me want to work with what Ive got, after all there are alot of people who would love to eat whatever they want without worrying about the consequences.

So Ive come to the conclusion that I really need to change the name of this goal from “gain weight” and instead focus on accepting, maintaining and embracing my figure. Besides, Kiera Knightely seems to get away with it, so why can’t I. Woo hoo!

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