don't lose what joy i have because i am overwhelmed by social fuckery- instead make positive differences, approach life light-heartedly, and remember that i am capable of creating the life i desire- NEVER give up on it

I joined the International Rescue Mission at my school and can’t wait to get more involved in that, particularly helping the homeless, but just the whole experience of giving back to humanity. A few days i also joined change.org and signed petitions on human trafficking and the Trayvon Martin ( i think that’s his last name) shooting.

I was unbelievably proud of myself today. The day started well, i smiled a lot, as usual, i looked around at my surroundings, tried to smell the fresh air, was aware of my walking, i was just very in the moment. For some reason i got into one of my “bad cloud” moments where sadness just envelops me, and this was on my way to the gym. i said hello to the student who swiped my card and she didn’t respond. because i was already feeling bad, and for some reason just very sensitive in general, i started crying as i waited for class to begin. However, the workout helped me destress and after pushing myself during cardio kickboxing i felt positive energy. I was very upset with myself for having allowed someone to get me so mad that it completely changed my attitude. After my workout i sat underneath the shade of a tree, and wrote in my mini composition book. I looked around and the woorld was ok. :)