I was sitting on the phone this morning talking to James, and I realized I am totally content with who I am. I m happy about the person I have become. It was weird saying the things that I have done, and some of the stuff I have gone through, then pausing and looking at myself and see what I have become. I know I have had a horrible year, I have had the worst experience in my life, I have also had the best. But I realized without all these thing, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today. It took me years to be comfortable and happy with myself physically, and now I realized I look the way I do for a reason. I am self conscious about it, but that is me. It makes me happy… If someone doesn’t like it they don’t have to look and be with me.
I have always been happy with my intellegence level. I am not afraid to say I don’t know something, and I am not afraid to get something wrong. I know I am smart, and I know I don’t need anyone else to make me happy. I was not able to be happy with anyone else until I was happy with myself, and now I am to that point. I am happy about how I became who I am. I am happy that I have my daughter in my life now. I am happy that I look forward to waking up every day, weather it is next to my daughter, or in Feb. it will be next to James.
I have come a long way in the last 10 months, and I know it will only get better from here. Now I am happy and in love. <3
