I am sitting here and trying not to let other people’s actions get to me. I am fully aware that I am not capable of controlling other peoples actions, but sometimes I wish my feelings would have an effect on what they do.
This is the second time in a row that I have sat here and wasted time. I wrote so much on here tonight so this person would have so much to read, since apparently they really enjoy it. After about 5 hours of waiting and realized I was stood up again for booze… and gawd knows what else… I decided to delete them. Why would I allow someone read the things I write about them that are so loving and caring, when their personal consideration towards me doesn’t take effect until it is too late.
So this is twice where I have been stuck waiting all night, where not to late has turned into being up at 7 AM upset. I am not mad that they are going out with friends, I am mad they they are not back when they say they will be… and then I get to hear about the hot girl they work with…. Then they are so drunk again, repeating themselves at least 3 times for one story.
They made a great point on the phone though… When they come out here they won’t know anyone… and they want to spend time out with their friends and such… Which is fine… I don’t care about that… I am not making them come out here, and again that is their own actions. Also he came close to doing some stupid shit… What I don’t get is if you are trying to stay off drugs why hang out with people who do them?
I wish I could ignore people and their actions no matter what their importance are to me and my family.
